Several years ago I rented a movie called "Click" which starred Adam Sandler. I can't remember what I was expecting, but the thoughtful, sorta sad movie I watched wasn't it.
If you have never seen the movie, spoiler alert! In the movie a harried, busy business man went and got a new remote control, one that could speed up time. This enabled the man to skip aspects of his life he didn't enjoy, such as watching his kid's performances or business meetings, he even fast forwarded through sex with his wife.
Over time, the remote learned when he typically fast forwarded, and would fast forward without him having to push the button. Soon he was missing huge chunks of his life. When he was in fast forward mode, he would behave in his average way, which turned out to be a man who overate and was a pretty big jerk to his family.
In the end he missed everything, and was divorced and estranged from his family. He had a successful career though! He ended up dying alone... and then he woke up and vowed to change his ways, like a modern day Scrooge.
As I stood up from watching the movie, I was heavy with a sadness I couldn't shake. I realized that at times I was just as guilty of trying to fast forward through life to get to what I viewed as the "goal" or the "thing".
Recently in this corner of the blogosphere (which is another way of saying the blog circle I am in), I have observed a lot of sadness and grief. Family members dying, children sick and lets not even get into the IRL examples of home foreclosures, broken dreams and divorce.
I am blessed. I have no immediate tragedies that have befallen my family, or even my friends. I am just trying to get to the next stop so I can rest before continuing on.
I will have to admit that when I started this post it was going to be funnier. I had all of these sarcastic things to say about how my house is a disaster and how I've been stricken with a disease that leads me to procrastination and eating copious amounts of chocolate... but then I realized that it's not how I'm feeling. I am trying to remember to take my finger off the fast forward button and appreciate my life and this moment of (relative) peace. My marriage is happy, my kids successful and healthy, I am surrounded by all of the blessings that God has given me.
I don't want to wake up one morning and realize that I missed it because I was too focused on getting to the next stop... without enjoying the journey. Here's to enjoying the journey and wherever it may lead...