What did you once lose? Write about your search to find it again.
It started when my son began Kindergarten. I had this idea that I might like to be one of "those" moms. You know the one. The one who signs up to be a room mom. The one who brings homemade cookies and cupcakes to class, just because. The one who corrects homework, works in the class and knows all the names of every student in their child's class. AND I wanted to join the PTSA!
So I did. I went to the meetings every month (I was pretty much the ONLY person who went to those meetings who wasn't on the Board). I worked in my son's class. I helped at every class party and sure enough knew every child's name in his class.
And then I lost my mind.
At the end of the year last year, I made a choice that I actually regretted at many different moments this year. I chose to be ON the PTSA Board. Really, I can hear you snickering, those who have done it. I have heard that it is not always like this, but my husband warned me. He said "You know that it's like High School. You'll hate it."
I smiled and said optimistically, "NO! I am sure it will be fun! The ladies all seem so nice. Maybe at other schools, but not here, not now. Besides, I won't let myself get caught up in the "drama", I'll just rise above it."
I can hear the snickering turn to laughter now... I know now what I did.
I went out and lost my ever-lovin' mind. I walked into the meeting and handed it over to someone and lost it.
I didn't realize my mind was gone until halfway into the school year. By then it was too late. I couldn't get out. I found myself being sucked into the drama. I replied to poorly written emails with well written sharp tongued retorts. I let them get to me.. and I couldn't keep myself from becoming a bitch in return.
So the end of the year is upon us! Tomorrow is the last day. Tonight is the last meeting.
Guess what? I'm stepping back. Not down. Back. I won't go to the meetings next year and I will not being co-chairing any events with my Bi-polar "friend" who brings out the bitch in me. I will regain what was lost... and my husband and children will rise up and call me blessed.
I think I've found my brain. Now... I get to be the room parent for my daughter's kindergarten class next year... I'm sure I'll keep my brain... right?
I wrote this post because I was inspired by Kristen at Taming Insanity and Natalie at Mommy of a Monster, (coincidentally I designed both of their blogs... hmmm)