I am so tired.
I've talked about why in my previous two posts for this week... but I am. I am weary. I am whelmed with information and knowledge and inspiration. I am ready to DO something, antsy and excited and terrified all at the same time.
A couple of nights ago I wrote about a word for the year. I have found so many bloggers (especially inspirational bloggers) who are talking about the word for the year as a focus or a spiritual "goal" or lifestyle choice for the next year.
I wrote about the fact that I usually get one from God, but more as a theme for the lessons I need to learn at a point in my life. Not sure that I could choose that, I started praying for wisdom and ideas.
I started coming up with words to create an acrostic of my name (partially as an assignment, partly to "kill" two birds with one stone). I had 4 out of the 6, but couldn't figure out the first A or second S. Then I got it.
It's the concept that has really resonated with me for this whole conference.
Defined it means "to remain, continue, stay; to endure, sustain, or withstand without yielding or submitting; or to wait for; await"
I have written about waiting, and it is one of my posts that have more google hits than any of the other posts I've written... because it is something we (as a culture) struggle with.
I am a busy woman, almost frantic in the energy I exude on a weekly basis. In fact, when I have been reading or writing and I interact with friends, often they will ask me "what's wrong?" because I seem too mellow (reading and writing have an almost hypnotic effect on me, my blood pressure lowers, my heart rate slows, my breathing becomes deeper - it's like meditation I guess).
I asked, God answered. (I love it when He does).
He answered before I even really asked. Every message I have heard in the last 3 weeks has been about "Abiding".
The above definition comes out of the dictionary, my definition is to "seek intimacy with God by remaining, waiting, and staying in His presence."
There are many different facets of this word, many different ways for different people to spend intimate time with God. (For some of you reading, the word "intimate" might be distracting you, because it makes you think of sexual intimacy; that is really NOT what I mean... I will explain, but not in this post...)
John 15:4 (ESV) says "Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit by itself,
unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in me."
I am a branch on a fruit bearing plant.
So are you.
My purpose as a branch on a fruit bearing plant is to produce fruit.
I can't do that unless I stay connected to the plant.
I don't have to do that alone, which takes the pressure off of my performance, my skills, abilities, or lack thereof. God has given me everything I need to bear fruit, I just need to stay attached to Him.
OR I need to stop doing things to cut myself off from Him.
Speaking Him to others
Allowing room for mistakes
Join me each Sunday as I discuss the above ideas through the Word and discuss different ways we can ABIDE in Christ.
What about You? Do you have a word for the year? If so, I would love to hear it, or to read your post about it (just put the link in the comments), if not, is there a reason?? or have you just not thought about it??
As always, thank you for taking the time to read and comment! It really makes my day!