"For now we are looking in a mirror that gives only a dim view reflection or reality--Now I know in part (Imperfectly); but then I shall know and understand fully and clearly even in the same manner as I have been fully and clearly known and understood by God." 1 Corinthians 13:12
Arms cross my chest. Holding myself in.
She talks and I listen...
my inner voice niggles from the back of my mind.
Don't give too much away. Save it.
Maybe she won't stay.
Maybe she will see...
that you aren't loveable.
Rejected. good for nothing.
I refocus on her story and make sounds of concern and care.
Now it comes time for me to bare my soul.
To be transparent and honest...
so she can see...
that I can understand her pain.
that I can offer love and caring.
that I am a friend.
I expose enough of my core to fake intimacy.
I wrap my arms around my center to protect myself.
I am safe.
Later, I am alone with Him.
The God who made me.
I hold myself in.
I try to pretend to be transparent with Him.
His chuckle shakes my core.
"I see you."
Suddenly I am bare.
I have no shield that can stop His love.
I have no words that can stop His grace.
I have no thoughts that can stop His mercy.
I relax my arms and open my hands.
and I am LOVED.
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